RADIATOR HEAT.

When winter tries to steal your soul.

You become cold,

you will try anything to keep warm..

To keep sane.

Radiator heat.

FIREWORKS.

Fireworks In February

We filled the house with smoke

&

 our glasses with champagne,

on a cold Monday in February.

.

champagne/no pain

SEASONAL DEPRESSION.

SEASONAL AFFECTIVE DISORDER:
“S.A.D.” (NOUN) 1. DEPRESSION ASSOCIATED WITH LATE AUTUMN AND WINTER THOUGHT TO BE CAUSED BY A LACK OF LIGHT.

AKA: SEASONAL DEPRESSION

FACTS:

1. ≈10 million affected each year

2. 1/2 American's suffer from S.A.D.
3. 60%-90% who suffer are women (so be nice to your ladies men)
4.Lack of sunlight increases your body's melatonin levels
(melatonin is a chemical that regulates our sleep)
5. Obviously you are not alone.

        REASSURANCE: It is okay to blame the weather.
It is also okay to sit around the house, under every possible blanket you can find, eat more carbs than normal, watch Netflix movies filmed in various warmer parts of the world, cry more than once a week, and converse about the effects of your state of mind with nearly everyone in bypassing while wearing your high school pajamas.

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HOWEVER: YOU ABSOLOUTLEY CANNOT MAKE THIS YOUR FULL TIME JOB.

 –BECAUSE-

A) YOU DO NOT GET PAID TO DO SO

 B)YOU WILL ONLY DEPRESS YOURSELF MORE

 C) YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS, FRIENDS, & EVEN STRANGERS NEED YOUR GOOD VIBES NOW MORE THAN EVER.

(There are a few solutions for symptom relief)

I recommend poppin' a Vitamin D before breakfast each day. Turning your bathroom into a sauna AT LEAST once a week, while doing so pretend your bath is the Ocean and even though "we all hate the state" close your eyes and embrace the Florida humidity; Take advantage of the snow and build a snowman, sip & sled, and drift the shit out of your probably already rusted-out car, and last but not least...put on your swimsuit, find a boat, grab a pineapple, some shades and pretend you are starring in a Wes Anderson Film.
-maybe not the last one, but you get the point-

This annoying array of emotions will not last Forever.

 Feeling...

Lethargic
Unmotivated
Distracted 
Sad
Pessimistic
Anxious
Irritable

...will not last forever.

BESIDES, IM PRETTY SURE LANA DEL RAY IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS EVER EXPERIENCED “SUMMER-TIME SADNESS”

  

❤

           

SALT & MENTHOL.

SOLANA BEACH, CA

72°

the cheapest & biggest bottle of sauvignon blanc we could find.

fog zombies

&

hair covered in cliff debris.

the view was ideal: 

palm trees, coast, and rich people

but really...my interest was in her.

her posture & the way her mind pondered

when she lifted her cigarettes.

this was just the beginning;

 "THE BEGINNING SMELLED LIKE SALT & MENTHOL"

WRITERS BLOCK.

I wish I had words for these photographs,

but I do not. 

My hands were numb.

my socks wet from the waves.

-6°F(uck)

 writer's block/block of ice.

..till the sun comes..

SURFS UP, MILWAUKEE

A DAY SPENT IN OVERALLS ON THE MELTING ICE.

BIG BAY, MKE

MOUNTAINS

When I actually have to time to think.

I think about packing one of the two hand-me-down suitcases my grandmother gave me that I use as a bedside table.

maybe to the mountains outside of my kitchen

FILM AND A FEMALE

It was her first time behind the camera. 

She hated her hands.

She felt awkward, uncomfortable, &

unsure of how to look or act.

She was beautiful.